trusting and loving someone to realize after almost 9 years, that things were not what you thought, is hard on the heart, but devastating to the soul. It puts you in a place that you fight daily to get out of. Your self worth begins to be a fight within yourself, and who you thought you were is no where to the person you so desperately now want to become. I`m not even sure if any of this will make sense to anyone else by myself. But yes my heart is broke, my trust is gone, yet my soul is in desperate need of soaring.