I was in a relationship for 14 years, married for 12 of those years, when my husband left me and started dating my friend after about 6 weeks, they moved in with her about 2 weeks after that. It made me feel like my whole relationship was a lie, my self esteem is low and no self confidence. That was 3 years ago. I meet someone else that made me feel special, treated me right. Now I have recently ended that relationship because I just dont feel I've been fair to the relationship. My self esteem is gone again, I just want it back, I want to be happy again, but it's been so long. Will I ever be happy, will I ever find that special someone. I'm sure he is out there, but where.