I need to stop the flashbacks

[Mogrann]

Hi all I am a 40some woman suffering from severe deperssion, self injury due to childhood abuse. I am on two meds for it.

My problem is I am having flashbacks, though to explain them I can not very fuzzy atm. I am terrified and DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER ANYMORE I can not handle this. I am in tears, shaking panicky etc. I am also so scared that I am fighting sucidal urges.

How do I stop rembering stop the flashbacks and erase memories. I can not do this anymore. I am tired of it all. and don't want ot find out someone else abused me sexually. I cant do this help me as I don't knwo what to do or say.

please